Monday, February 23, 2009


I have been thinking of this subject very much recently. Is having a crush healthy or unhealthy? What even defines a crush? In the past, I would always find myself thinking of a guy and I could never get him out of my head! I'm grateful now, that I truly understand the character of Jesus, I grasp that He is all I need. It took me a really long time to get here. For the longest time I didn't even have a boy (I mean man!) pop into my head. I was completely content with the fact that God was not only my father, and brother, but also my lover. I didn't need to "crush" on anyone because I was only focused on Christ. Well, what happens when all of a sudden, you start noticing someone and think they're attractive, and wonder "what if?" Is that ok? I don't think it's wrong to think people are attractive. But what happens, when you start attaching false hopes to that person because you're smitten over them? I don't think that is ok. Where do you draw a line? I'm glad that I have been able to discern that line, but I'm just wondering what some other opinions are on this topic? Silly Crushes!

Friday, February 13, 2009


I just got a voicemail from Laurie at First Resort. First Resort is a christian pregnancy clinic that I went to right when I found out I was pregnant. First Resort asked my mom, Cameron, and me to tell our story on a video that they would show to people that would walk through their doors. (Of course, there were many other stories on the video too.) We filmed it when Cameron was only a few months old. Anyways, Laurie left me a message today saying that a young lady had gone into the center for some advice, counseling, and watched the video. Many months later they found out she kept the baby, because of OUR STORY! I guess I never realized what an impact it could be, but I'm so grateful to God for giving me the opportunity to bless people because God is a Sovereign God! I get to call her back when I get off work today, and she is hoping that I can meet this woman over lunch! I would love that. I'm so stoked on God right now. I am so blessed by the decision I made with Cameron, and I couldn't imagine my life any other way! I will blog about this more later! :)


Thursday, February 12, 2009


Jenni Ingram took this picture of Cameron. I love it. We were at "The Abbey" in Santa Cruz. Cameron looks so peaceful. What if we all were that peaceful about knowing God is in control of our lives and surrendering it to him?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Mothers Know Best

This obviously doesn't pertain to my life, because my situation is different, but I read this and still got a good chuckle!

Mom was out and Dad was in charge. Two and a half year old Tiffany was playing with one of her favorite toys, her tea set. Daddy was in the living room engrossed in the evening news when cute little Tiffany brought him a tiny tea cup filled with water. After several "cups of tea" and lots of praise for such yummy tea, Mom came home. Dad said, “Honey, wait right here and watch what Tiffany is doing. It’s the cutest thing.” Mom waited and sure enough, Tiffany came down the hall with another cup of tea for Daddy and she watched him playfully drink it all up.Then Mom said, “Did it ever occur to you that the only place that Tiffany can reach to get water is the toilet?” …Mothers know!

Friday, February 6, 2009


Tuesday night I went with a group of friends to go see Wicked at the Orpheum Theatre in San Francisco. It was amazing. I heard such great things about it from friends who had seen it before, so I knew I wanted to check it out. Wicked is the prequel to the movie "The Wizard Of Oz." I don't want to blow any details but there are definitely lots of twists and secrets in Wicked. It made me question a lot of my opinions and impressions I had from the movie and I am really excited to watch it now with a completely different perspective.

I started thinking about real life too. How often do people judge me and come up with opinions on me without knowing me and my story? Or, how often do I do that someone else? It made me realize how sticky "surface" impressions can be. So often, we see people happy on the outside, but they are hurting deep down and don't want people to know. The great thing about God, is that he knows our hearts. We can't pretend for him.

Before we went in to see the show, we stopped and had some dinner at a Carl's Jr. that was a block away from the theatre. While we were eating a lady came up and started yelling and cussing at us. We did nothing to provoke her, and she kept calling us, "....bleep.... dot-commers." I guess she assumed that's what we were based off of the way we were dressed for the show. It breaks my heart that people have such hostility towards others. It also brings me back to the point of first impressions and how important it is as followers of Christ, to do our best at glorifying God through any situation, and realizing that not everyone knows who you really are on the inside.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Cameron's Third Birthday

I haven't given a recap of Cameron's birthday party.
It was absolutely AMAZING! Over 50+ people (adults and kids) came to celebrate Cameron. It is so encouraging for me to have so many friends that support and love him.

It was an airplaned themed party with wooden airplanes for the kids to paint on as well as other games like "pin the pilot on the plane." Autumn, Katie, and Jenni helped me with every single aspect of the party, and I could not have done it without them!

The whole thought of Cameron being three years old absolutely blows me away. It feels like just yesterday that I was 17 and finding out I was pregnant. I can assure you, my life is absolutely amazing, and I would never have it any other way. Cameron is a complete blessing. God is so sovereign and works in such amazing ways.

Three years ago, my friends put on a baby shower for me at my parents house, and it was definitely a tough time. My parents hadn't completely come to grips with the fact that I had just had a baby, and they still weren't quite supportive. NOW, Three years later, my friends and I had a birthday party for Cameron celebrating him and my parents were there celebrating him right by my side! They can't imagine their life without this precious boy. I am constantly reminded of God's grace and how truly amazing it is.
Cameron is such an important part of community with all of my friends, and I love that. I love that Cameron continues to touch peoples lives when he is only three years old! And what a great story he is going to get to tell!

Here are some pictures from the party. Enjoy!